Assalaam alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu
Good Morning everyone !
Well, my weekend... it was a strange one. part of it was the worst time I have ever had in my life , but yet the sun was shining and was full of smiles and giggles.
It's hard to know , sometimes, if the choices we make are the right ones. For example, we say...nothing is worth having if it was easy to get. Or...there is the thought that if Allah wills it, then it should be easy and good. Is something bad happening to us because we have to learn more patience and sabr? Or is it to force us to let go ? Things have a way of repeating themselves until we get it right...don't u find? I do believe that everything happens for a reason, whether good or bad..
I do know one thing... when things are tough, it's a blow to our faith. Even though there is this saying that when the world brings you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray. But it's hard cause you had put faith and hopes in God's hands and it brought you pain. So why or how can you trust and submit again when you feel that it's probably just gonna get you hurt again? I have to admit , though, When things have been very difficult in the past, I prayed and asked God to help me and when I did. things immediately got better. It at least get's it off your shoulders and into God's hands.
When things are good... sometimes we put praying and trusting in God in the back of our minds. Course we are not supposed to.
On a sister's ( not my real sister.. sister in Islam ) blog I read today... that she had a hard time and was weak in faith and no one was there for her. I felt horrible. Why you ask? because I had noticed her withdrawal and a few times I had a feeling that she was headed down the wrong path. I didn't reach out to her. I thought that maybe It wasn't my place , us not being super close best friend's.. just pretty much acquaintances and share a few friends together. I pray she accepts my apology and finds it in her hear to forgive me, Incha'Allah. We really have to support each other in our deen. I have been blessed to be surrounded with sisters that help me. Al hamdulilah. but this came over time. It wasn't so in the beginning.
So please.. if you feel a sister is fading into the background or mentions some depressing things..or just needs a little lift.. take the time to reach out. Surround yourselves with good sisters that will do his for you as well. Cause one day you might be the one in need. ;)
Anyway enough of this thinking stuff !!
My baby girl is just such a joy to me and brings sunshine in my life. She is a very special baby for sure. Even when she is bad and has a temper...she is so darn cute !! Al hamdullilah for her :) ( and of course the other two...goes without saying..cause they have been my reason to live :))
My brother came to visit yesterday. It's almost a year since we moved apart. I miss him dearly. So we did some computer stuff and he spent some time with the kids and enjoyed the baby and her extreme naughtiness. hehe. Hated to see him leave though. I love my baby brother ! We had spaghetti and Salad...anyway he seems to enjoy himself too.
Also.. I got my hair cut and styled!! you might say.. why the heck does she even bother.. she wears a scarf over it lol Well those of you that knew me as a non-hijabi know that my best feature is my hair...and I have really let go...don't even brush it most days. it was almost down to my behind and all broken and dry..and tangled. I used to get my hair done every couple months...I had the softest...shiniest hair...and bouncy! but it had become literally a mop. My hair could be found everywhere..so much of it was falling out. I only wore it in a ponytail at home...when I once would even do my hair on weekends... I stopped this. Mostly cause I hated my hair. Maybe part of it was my depression. Well.... I can tell you... I went to a hair salon. A REAL one..not stupid Walmart where I have gone the past few times I got it trimmed like a year ago !! lol
( BTW sisters.. don't worry hubby gave me the ok ;), those who are not Muslim...a woman should not cut her hair without the husbands permission. It's an intimate part of their relationship that most men enjoy. It's not required that man have his wife's permission, however, he is supposed to be a pious man and love his wife and care about what pleases her and a good Muslim man will do whatever it takes and it's understood that he isn't required to do what she says BUT that he is a man that should know better and do so to benefit the marriage )
So ya...I got it washed..not thinking much about it.. I figured it would be just a quick get it over with kinda wash..cause truly the price they charge is a normal one and I did not expect more. But...sisters.. the hairdresser gave a scalp massage..oh MAN did it feel good!! al hamdullilah it was kinda funny cause the towel she used to put on my wet hair to go over to the hairdressing table..to keep me hidden , was not big enough !! my hair was too long for her towel! lol so then she proceeded in brushing and combing my hair in this very very relaxing way..if I was a cat, I would have purred ! I told her how I wanted it cut..and she clipped away...I was pretty impressed with her way of cutting... I haven't seen anything like that since I went to a fancy place in Canterbury , Kent, UK. where I spent a buncha cash to treat myself. so then she dried it with a hair dryer and the warm wind it made over and in my hair felt like heaven ....then VOILA... my bouncy, shiny long beautiful hair was back !! I felt like myself again! Where the heck have I been and why didn't I do this before?!! DUHHHHHH
So that's my lesson...when I am starting to feel down..go out and spend and spend 20, well spent, bucks and get my hair done!
Salams y'all I gotta go hang up some washing on this beautiful +2 Celsius weather then go shopping for my lil baby :)
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