Still here....

Salam Alaykom to you all.
First I want to apologize for not writing a blog. A fellow blogger recently wrote to em and said.. I forgot you had a blog, but you have no entries. So I decided to start it up again. Al hamdullilah
As many of you may know, I had a baby on April 3rd. A beautiful baby girl, Jennah. Masha'allah. This is a picture of us on our vacation a few weeks ago.
I have to say.. having a baby at 39 is not easy. However it is very rewarding.
I have been overwhelmed and really not enough energy to even think, but al hamdullilah it is getting better. My marriage has been rocky, but I guess every marriage, during the first year together is hard. Incha'allah we can work things out and everything can be ok. We had a lot to handle this first year ( which is coming up on Sept 8th).
I'm breastfeeding too, with success , al hamdulilah. I am very proud of this. 'cause that too is not an easy thing !! She is just now, at, 4 mths , starting to give me some free time and occupy herself.
We moved to a smaller place and its been a month and I still have nothing set up properly. Incha'allah soon.
My two older kids, 15 and 12 help me out immensely, Al hamdullilah Thank God for them!!
I dunno much what to say... I have been secluded and kinda feel like a prisoner in my own home these days..but Incha'allah I will be getting out more now.I have a few sisters that I miss terribly...they are either moved away...vacationing or live just far enough that I can't easily go see them.
on bright side, Ramadan is near !!! I am excited about this and since I am home and not working ( mat. leave), then I am hoping to be able to make this a good experience incha'allah. I feel sad about not fasting again this year. But I talked it over with the husband..and we both feel it would be too much of a strain on everyone and since I have been bleeding a lot... it might not be a good idea. Also baby need her vitamins ;)
Anyway... this is short and doesn't say much... I hope to gradually write more, Incha;allah.
I would , however like to welcome a new sister in the Mulsim world :) A new Shahada... "C" Masha'allah she recently said her Shahada and I am so excited for her to be discovering the beauty of the deen and May Allah bless her with much sabr and happiness. The journey is not an easy one, but it is rewarding and incha'allah will grant you jannah...Welcome !! hug....xox

salams fer now