Sunday, March 21, 2010

Just something I wish to share...

Assalaam alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu

I will write another blog Incha'Allah, after this one but I wanted to share a blog that I found that is very important one. Incha'Allah it will help those who read this in there hardships.

Jul 10, 2009
"Verily, After Hardship Comes Ease"
Posted by Mudassir Bashir at 3:24 PM Labels: Fact
At a time in which the Muslims are beset with trials from every periphery, it is a time when Muslims should continue being Muslims, only better Muslims. I would say to my dear brothers and sisters in Islam "don’t be Sad"; if you are on the true religion – believing in One God and all the Messengers sent to mankind, then don’t be sad.

"...Bear with patience whatever befalls you...." (Qur'an 31:17) and "Be not sad, surely Allah is with us." (Qur'an 9:40)

Our Prophet (pbuh) said: "Verily, if Allah loves a people, He makes them go through trials. Whoever is satisfied, for him is contentment, and whoever is angry upon him is wrath." [Tirmidhi]

Being sad is not encouraged in Islam

"So do not become weak, nor be sad..." (Qur'an 3:139)
"And grieve not over them, and be not distressed because of what they plot." (Qur'an 16:127)

Sadness prevents one from action instead of compelling one towards it. The heart does not benefit through grief. The most beloved thing to the devil is to hinder the worshipper in the path of Allah. The Muslim must repel sadness and fight in any way that is permissible in Islam.

Allah is sufficient for us

"Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs. So they returned with Grace and Bounty from Allah. No harm touched them; and they followed the good Pleasure of Allah. And Allah is the owner of Great Bounty." (Qur'an 3:173-174)

"And put your trust in Allah if you are believers indeed..." (Qur'an 5:23)
"O you who believe! Seek help in patience and the prayer..." (Qur'an 2:153)

By leaving your affairs to Allah by depending on Him, by trusting in His promise, by being pleased with His decree, by thinking favourably of Him, and by waiting patiently for His help, you reap some of the greater fruits of faith. When you incorporate these qualities, you will be at peace concerning the future, because you will depend on your Lord for everything. As a result, you will find care, help, protection and victory.


"No calamity befalls on earth or in yourselves but is inscribed in the Book of Decrees – before We bring it into existence." (Qur'an 57:22)

The pen has dried, and the pages have been lifted: all events shall come to pass have already been written. Whatever has befallen you was not meant to escape you, and whatever has escaped you was not meant to befall you: if this belief were to be firmly ingrained in your heart, then all hardships and difficulty would become ease and comfort.

The Prophet (pbuh) said, "Whoever Allah wishes good for, He inflicts him (with hardship)." [Bukhari]

For those who are afflicted with disaster, glad tidings await them: so remain patient and happy with your Lord. "He cannot be questioned as to what He does, while they will be questioned." (Qur'an 21:23)

Verily, with hardship, there is relief

"Verily, with hardship there is relief" (Qur'an 94:6)
"Perhaps Allah may bring victory or a decision according to His Will." (Qur'an 5:52)

Prophet Ibrahim ('alayhissalam) did not feel its heat because of the help he received from Allah. "We (Allah) said : O' fire! Be you coolness and safety for Ibrahim." (Qur'an 21:69)

The sea would not drown Prophet Moses ('alayhissalaam) because he uttered in confident, strong and truthful manner: "Nay verily! With me is my Lord, He will guide me." (Qur'an 26:62)
And the Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu 'alayhi wa sallam) said to 'Abdullah bin 'Abbas (radiyallahu 'anhu): "..Be mindful of Allah, you will find Him before you. Get to know Allah in prosperity and He will know you in adversity... And know that victory comes with patience, relief with affliction, and ease with hardship." [Tirmidhi]

Accept life as it is

If you read the Qur'an you will see that all the Prophets went through trials and tribulations. Life is a test so let us learn from the best examples of our Prophets. "Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty, ailments and were shaken." (Qur'an 2:214)

We should know that if we are pleased with our Lord, He will be pleased with us. And if you are pleased with your Lord no matter what the situation is, then you will find that you have earned your Lord's pleasure. On the other hand, there are hypocrites whom Allah rejects their deeds. They are displeased with what Allah sends down and they hate seeking His pleasure; thus their deeds are performed in vain.

Your recompense is with Allah

When Allah, the Exalted takes something away from you, He compensates it with something better, but only if you are patient and seek His reward.
Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu 'alayhi wa sallam) said, "Whoever loses a loved one from the people of this world and then seeks recompense with his Lord, will be compensated with Paradise."

Those who are in this world and are close to Allah will be raised in the highest of heaven: "Peace be upon you, because you peresevered in patience! Excellent indeed is the final home!" (Qur'an 13:24)

Truly, the life of this world is short and its treasures are few. O' afflicted ones, if you are patient you lose nothing; and though you may not perceive it, you are profiting.
Extract honey but do not break the hive

"Repel (the evil) with one which is better, then verily! He, between whom and you there was enmity (will become) as though he was a close friend." (Qur'an 41:34)
"….and harm them not. And put your trust in Allah." (Qur'an 33:48)

Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu 'alayhi wa sallam) said, "Verily, Allah ordered me to keep relations with those that cut off, forgive the ones who does an injustice with me, and to give to those who withhold from me."

"Those who repress anger, and who pardon men; verily, Allah loves the good-doers." (Qur'an 3-134)

Remembrance of Allah

"Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest." (Qur'an 13:28)
"Therefore remember Me and I will remember you…" (Qur'an 2:152)

We should not be surprised when we hear that people who remember Allah are at peace. What is truly surprising is how the negligent and unmindful survive without remembering Him. Allah says in the Qur'an, "They are dead, lifeless and they know not when they will be raised up." (Qur'an 16: 21)

Truly, He is near when supplicated: He hears when he is called and He answers when He is invoked, so humble yourself before Him and ask of Him sincerely. Repeat His beautiful names, and mention Him alone as worthy of worship. Mention His praises, supplicate to Him: you will find then – by the will of Allah – happiness, peace and illumination. “So Allah gave them the reward of this world and the excellent reward of the Hereafter.” (Qur’an 3:148)

Loving Allah, knowing Him, remembering Him, seeking peace in Him, singling Him out for complete love, fear, hope and dependence – these qualities when combined in a person, constitute a sort of heaven on earth.

These are qualities that bring peace to those who love Allah, a sort of peace that has no comparison in this world.It is important that a special relationship exists in the heart between the slave and his Lord, a relationship that allows the slave to feel so close to his Lord that he requires no other.

Thus, he finds company when he is alone, and he tastes the sweetness of remembering Him and supplicating to Him. Allah's slave will continually face hardship and difficulty until he dies, but if he has a special relationship with his Lord, all of the hardships of life will become easy for him.

The prayer….the prayer – we must return to our mosques

"O' you who believe! Seek help in patience and the Prayer." (Qur'an 2:153)

By earnestly performing the five daily prayers, we achieve the greatest of blessings: cleared off our sins and increase in rank with our Lord. Prayer is a potent remedy for our sickness, for it instills our faith in our souls.

As for those that keep away from the mosque and away from prayer, for them is unhappiness, wretchedness and an embittered life.

"For them is destruction and Allah will make their deeds vain." (Qur'an 47:8)

Take a moment to reflect

O whose mind has wandered in grief, O' you whose eyes are loaded with tears; relax and know that your Creator aids, and that His mercy will bring you peace. And know that your reward is secure with He Who doesn’t disappoint the one who seeks to please Him. Be at peace, for after poverty comes joyous meeting, and after sleeplessness comes sound rest. O you who are oppressed in the lands, who suffer from hunger, pain, sickness and poverty, rejoice in the knowledge that you will soon be satisfied with food and that you will be happy and in good health.

Let us make these supplications, their purpose being to eliminate hardship, anxiety and grief:

"There is no worthy of worship except Allah, the Ever Forbearing, the Most Great. There is none worthy of worship except Allah, the Lord of the Tremendous Throne. There is none worthy of worship One Who sustains and protects all that exists, there is none worthy of worship except You, and by Your Mercy do we seek Your aid."
"So be patient, with a good patience..." (Qur'an 70:5)

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

The Countdown is winding down....

Assalaam alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu!

Happy Sunday to everyone ! Incha'Allah, you are all well and high in Imaan. :)

So sorry that I have not written in a week! Time flies sisters!

Yeah..So I am writing this with 15 hours left until back to work! Back to booking appointments, listening to patients complaints...being bossed around by a buncha nurses :) Al hamdullilah. I am excited and a bit scared...not of the job..but getting home at 5 something and having to take care of Jennah..and getting supper for the rest... hoping the teenagers will step up and help more...Incha'Allah.

This week was beautiful masha'Allah. Spring is in the air ! everyday was sunny and I got a lot of walks in...and clothes hung out on the line. I love the smell of clothes dried outside ! I did a lot of spring cleaning..which actually was not cleaning but rather finally organizing my important papers and bills from the past 10 years +. I was so overwhelmed, being a single working mom...taking care of my sick brother...waiting for my husband and trying to be a good new convert. I even traveled like almost 2 hours to work and same back most of this time. Sometimes in a car that didn't even have a heater. ( I would start the slowly another 25 minuted until I reached the Tim Horton;s and got a coffee there, which I held in my hand to defrost the windshield..with mittens on and hood over my head ! ) So opening letters and dealing with bills that I couldn't pay anyway..things just piled up and up and UP. At least I shoved them in one big box..well actually 3 big boxes lol. Anyway it's not quite done..but it's getting there. And yesterday the hubby cleaned out my closet and organized things. Al hamdulillah. I still have those hijabs to take care of but my funds are lacking at the moment, so the baskets I have on the shelf are just gonna have to be re-organized as neat as I can. I have decided on one of two choices. My first one is the cloth hanging shelves with drawers in.. would be super easy to reach and less on the floor.. or option # 2 would be plastic drawers, which would be places on the floor of my closet taking up space, but at least my shelf on top where the baskets are now will be free.. free for I dunno what! lol

The baby has been extra clingy too, not sure if it's cause of teething or that she can sense there is a change coming. She is used to going to daycare now so it will not be a change for her really. She is just so adorable and loving with the right amount of...lets say "spice" . haha the Arab part of her I say...

I've also been in touch with work this week.. getting some things settled. I had been working there over a year and they didn't yet have my name on my office door... so I asked for this... Said well, if u still wanna can me..then let me know instead of having me keep thinking its gonna happen cause I don;t have my name on the door lol In all fairness the person in charge was on mat leave when I started working so.. anyway she said she would get on that ! I don;t think I will be getting my same desk back. but that's ok...I mean the other secretary has been there for like I duno 15 years ! lol She was away on sick leave while I was working too, so I will be getting to work with her.I hear she is super funny and nice...another mommy for me hehe. There is a nurse's aid that works with us and I call her mommy Joanne.
Also I will be wearing a jelaba on my first day back! I wonder how that's gonna go? oh well best they get used to it lol

The worst thing about me going back to work is not being able to "hang" with my friend, Michele...whom I lovingly call Shelli. Masha'Allah..
just read her blog.. masha'allah. It's another reason I have not been writing...I'm sad :( Incha'ALlah we can still keep in touch. I really dunno what I would do without her to set me straight when my stupid brain starts acting up. or cheer me up when I have nothing to be cheerful about..or her Islamic advice and our supporting of each other with our arab husbands :) Most of all sharing our babies life together. I wish that I had the cash to go visit her again. Incha'Allah soon.
Here is the blog.. still no idea how to post a link properly..this blogger thing has changes so ur gonna have to paste and copy in ur browser ;)

Anyways..I loves her much !! Allah blessed me to have you in my life sis :)
Aw I am crying again... happy pills are not working !! lol

ok changing subject before I start blubbering so much I can't stop lol

other day..was walking with baby on sidewalk.. now I usually get stares or people "peeking" at me. Or maybe the usual ignore when I smile at someone passing me on the sidewalk. ( my daughter, Sarah, says I should stick my tongue out at them lol) anyhow... lotsa cars go by on this road and one lady was sooooo engrossed with the hijabi on the sidewalk that she did not notice the car in front of her stop at the stop sign! she came very very close to a big fender bender lol ...
( Ammena texted me to remind me to tell her about it ;) so here it is ) Nothing big .. and noone was hurt..but it's so funny the way people react. Typical of a Quebecer town.. I am sure u have all heard the niqaabi issues we are having ! Most people here have never even left their hometown to see other life in this's kinda sad really.. we threaten their safe little existence. If they would only look outside of the box for once !

Anyway... I better get to work.. I have lots to do today... gonna put some chicken in the crock pot..then in fridge.. so all I gotta do is turn it on in the morning and let it cook all day..! yay for crock pots~!laundry.and preparing mentally...
hoping the hubby will make some paella....incha'Allah.

Keep me in ur prayers ya'll.. gonna need it ! Yesterday , I had somewhat of a meltdown.and pannick attack.. has not happened in a while...Just things seems to be coming at me in all directions...Incha'allah today will be better. I know everyne needs Duaas.. so my duaas are always with you all :)

OHHH also.. finally FINALLY got my new dining room table and chairs !! will post pics as soon as I get things set up around here. Incha'Allah.

FI Amenallah

Monday, March 8, 2010

Weekend stuff....

Assalaam alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu

Good Morning everyone !

Well, my weekend... it was a strange one. part of it was the worst time I have ever had in my life , but yet the sun was shining and was full of smiles and giggles.

It's hard to know , sometimes, if the choices we make are the right ones. For example, we say...nothing is worth having if it was easy to get. Or...there is the thought that if Allah wills it, then it should be easy and good. Is something bad happening to us because we have to learn more patience and sabr? Or is it to force us to let go ? Things have a way of repeating themselves until we get it right...don't u find? I do believe that everything happens for a reason, whether good or bad..

I do know one thing... when things are tough, it's a blow to our faith. Even though there is this saying that when the world brings you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray. But it's hard cause you had put faith and hopes in God's hands and it brought you pain. So why or how can you trust and submit again when you feel that it's probably just gonna get you hurt again? I have to admit , though, When things have been very difficult in the past, I prayed and asked God to help me and when I did. things immediately got better. It at least get's it off your shoulders and into God's hands.

When things are good... sometimes we put praying and trusting in God in the back of our minds. Course we are not supposed to.

On a sister's ( not my real sister.. sister in Islam ) blog I read today... that she had a hard time and was weak in faith and no one was there for her. I felt horrible. Why you ask? because I had noticed her withdrawal and a few times I had a feeling that she was headed down the wrong path. I didn't reach out to her. I thought that maybe It wasn't my place , us not being super close best friend's.. just pretty much acquaintances and share a few friends together. I pray she accepts my apology and finds it in her hear to forgive me, Incha'Allah. We really have to support each other in our deen. I have been blessed to be surrounded with sisters that help me. Al hamdulilah. but this came over time. It wasn't so in the beginning.
So please.. if you feel a sister is fading into the background or mentions some depressing things..or just needs a little lift.. take the time to reach out. Surround yourselves with good sisters that will do his for you as well. Cause one day you might be the one in need. ;)

Anyway enough of this thinking stuff !!

My baby girl is just such a joy to me and brings sunshine in my life. She is a very special baby for sure. Even when she is bad and has a temper...she is so darn cute !! Al hamdullilah for her :) ( and of course the other two...goes without saying..cause they have been my reason to live :))

My brother came to visit yesterday. It's almost a year since we moved apart. I miss him dearly. So we did some computer stuff and he spent some time with the kids and enjoyed the baby and her extreme naughtiness. hehe. Hated to see him leave though. I love my baby brother ! We had spaghetti and Salad...anyway he seems to enjoy himself too.

Also.. I got my hair cut and styled!! you might say.. why the heck does she even bother.. she wears a scarf over it lol Well those of you that knew me as a non-hijabi know that my best feature is my hair...and I have really let go...don't even brush it most days. it was almost down to my behind and all broken and dry..and tangled. I used to get my hair done every couple months...I had the softest...shiniest hair...and bouncy! but it had become literally a mop. My hair could be found much of it was falling out. I only wore it in a ponytail at home...when I once would even do my hair on weekends... I stopped this. Mostly cause I hated my hair. Maybe part of it was my depression. Well.... I can tell you... I went to a hair salon. A REAL one..not stupid Walmart where I have gone the past few times I got it trimmed like a year ago !! lol
( BTW sisters.. don't worry hubby gave me the ok ;), those who are not Muslim...a woman should not cut her hair without the husbands permission. It's an intimate part of their relationship that most men enjoy. It's not required that man have his wife's permission, however, he is supposed to be a pious man and love his wife and care about what pleases her and a good Muslim man will do whatever it takes and it's understood that he isn't required to do what she says BUT that he is a man that should know better and do so to benefit the marriage )
So ya...I got it washed..not thinking much about it.. I figured it would be just a quick get it over with kinda wash..cause truly the price they charge is a normal one and I did not expect more. But...sisters.. the hairdresser gave a scalp massage..oh MAN did it feel good!! al hamdullilah it was kinda funny cause the towel she used to put on my wet hair to go over to the hairdressing keep me hidden , was not big enough !! my hair was too long for her towel! lol so then she proceeded in brushing and combing my hair in this very very relaxing way..if I was a cat, I would have purred ! I told her how I wanted it cut..and she clipped away...I was pretty impressed with her way of cutting... I haven't seen anything like that since I went to a fancy place in Canterbury , Kent, UK. where I spent a buncha cash to treat myself. so then she dried it with a hair dryer and the warm wind it made over and in my hair felt like heaven ....then VOILA... my bouncy, shiny long beautiful hair was back !! I felt like myself again! Where the heck have I been and why didn't I do this before?!! DUHHHHHH

So that's my lesson...when I am starting to feel down..go out and spend and spend 20, well spent, bucks and get my hair done!

Salams y'all I gotta go hang up some washing on this beautiful +2 Celsius weather then go shopping for my lil baby :)

Friday, March 5, 2010

Just to Share ;)

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Mon Travail...

Assalaam alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu

Well.. March 15th is coming soon! I am excited...and not even nervous a bit ! I am a born working girl..not a stay at home mom..being a stay at home mom is the hardest job ever. Morally ,intellectually, physically and especially emotionally. I would prefer to work 3 days a week and have 2 at home.. however, I chose to go back 4 days instead of 5. I should be getting pretty much the same pay as if I was working 5 days. I need the money!! am the sole supporter at the moment and been getting 55% of my salary since July on my mat leave. From February till then I was actually getting more than my salary...cause I was getting 75% from the Quebec parental place..(QPIP, whatever that stands for ! )and the rest up to 97 % was covered by the hospital I work at. We get a year off with pay and Canada allows up to 2 years off ( 1 paid, 1 not) but since I work at the hospital I can actually take up to 3 off... of course the last two will not be paid. Still..I know we are so blessed. I cannot understand how a mother can only get 6 weeks or less off and nurture her new born. It's really sad and for a country like USA. you'd think they would have something better than Canada... nope. ( I pray they get health care soon! ) Oh and did I mention the father can get time off paid too!! its a few weeks at least.I cannot remember..and he gets paid as well. Which is awesome!

I am going off track a little bit..forgive me :) Itto...commented the other day that she was curious as to what I do...and I realized there are some newer people to my blog that do not know.

I really do love my job and I worked very hard over the years to get the position I have. Al hamdullilah it is a blessing. I am a medical secretary at the Montreal Children's Hospital. here is a link...
and a picture...

I am blessed to be part of such a wonderful team here and work with a bunch of very talented doctors and nurses. Al hamdullilah.

here are a few that I could find on the net and some info about them;

Dr Sam Daniel , is actually the same age as I and we both went to the same high school. His research and his known true care of patients is well-known and has saved many little lives, Al hamdullilah.

There is also..the head of my department, Dr. Hema Patel, who has a deaf child of her own , contributed greatly to the coalition of getting newborns hearing screened, which will be starting very soon in Quebec as a routine exam for newborns.

Anyway there are quit a few.. Dr. Louise Auger.. who is the head of the Multicultural department. here. they welcome new immigrants or refugees who do not yet have health care. it's a very important program which is necessary to update the children to adapt. some even lose so much weight. Some have psychological problems if they come from a war torn country. We have a lot of children that have AIDS arrive with no care. We also have interpreters that are arranged by the hospital for those families that cannot speak French or English. She goes out of her way to help these people. I even know that she will go see where they are living to make sure they have what they need. She is an extraordinary woman.

there are so many more talented and caring people I work with. You can browse the site and visit all that we do.

I have worked pretty much with everyone there. I started out as a temp. Someone who is there to fill in when people are sick or on leave, or when they need extra work done. They could only promise me 2-3 days a week of work. But I worked full time right from the beginning. It is very difficult to find support staff that have an idea about medical stuff, like I do. I did this for about 5 years before I got a permanent position. I went through about 2 other permanent positions before this one I am in now became available. I did my "time" ;)

Some of you know that I have a daughter with a chronic disease. Sarah, who is now 13 has been followed there since she was 13 mths old for Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis. Because of the Rheumatology team at this hospital, and of course, My hard work and care as a mother, my big baby girl can now walk and she pretty much lives pain free. At the moment she is in remission. Al hamdullilah.

Alos, My son, Nicholas, who is soon to be 16 this July,had also spent some time admitted there. When he was born, it was pretty dramatic. They had to use a ventouse to get him out and it made some trauma on his head. He was admitted to the Montreal Children's neonatal Intensive care unit hours after he was born. This wonderful team...have an ambulance in which they will travel far... where I was .. was almost 1 and a half hour drive.( COwansville) a team will come to the hospital and take ur baby safely to the Children's. They saved his life. Masha'Allah. he has some bleeding between his brain and skull which cleared up after a while.. and he is perfect now :) Al hamdullilah. Almost 6 feet tall and honor student ;) ( Sarah is as well :))

you can Imagine why I am working where I do. Right from the time in 1994 when Nicholas was born, I wanted to be part of a team like this and help families.. I say families because (this is the great part of where I work) the staff not only treats and cares for the child, they take care of all the family. When a child is sick... the whole family suffers and it's essential that these families are supported in order for their children to heal.

So now.. to explain what I DO ;) I work in the Intensive Ambulatory Care Service. lovingly known as the home care department. :)
here is the link:
(sorry folks the link thingy on here doesn't seem to work sooo. )

My job is to coordinate clinics...triage calls to respective nurses and to greet patients,get results, type letters..and usual stuff. All this for these chronically ill patients. There are even adults. which is fun...Some of these patients need 24 hour nursing care. I try to coordinate all their appointments in one one visit if I can. Sometimes its in different hospitals. Or coordinate and arrange for a bed if they need to be admitted. maybe some follow up care once they have been discharged. I often escort my patients to their tests so they do not have to wait. Can you imagine waiting an hour or two for blood tests with a new born on oxygen? no ehn?( ya I say "ehn" a lot..I am Canadian :P ) I make sure they don't have to. I feel my job is so important, because without me...the nurses and doctors cannot help their patients..and the patients might get worse...
I miss everyone so much too!!
Kinda form a close bond when u do this kinda work ;)

What I am looking forward too , as well, is having some time OF MY OWN. This place is downtown Montreal and can visit cool neat things.I can LIVE again! yippie !

so I will leave u on that note and get back to work at home.. lots to do today!!

Fi Amenallah

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Happiness is not something we find, it's something we create.

Assalaam alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatahu and Salut a tous :)

yeah.. I'm from Quebec, Canada so I speaka da french. :) (btw...YAY for Canadian hockey team !! you rock! )

I am feeling pretty good today al hamdullilah, despite having a stoopid allergic reaction. my eyeball swelled up! not around the eye..the actual EYEBALL. I am allergic to housecleaning haha.

My insane muslimah sister(she's not really insane, she only thinks she is lol) has restarted her blog al hamdullilah and gotten her teenage daughter to start too. I hope that it's gonna be a good way for us to communicate because really I would not have survived this long in my life or marriage without her. Mahsa'Allah. Gonna miss her terribly but I guess it's time for us both to make some changes for ourselves and for our families incha'allah. I am really gonna miss her terribly ! and if you look at her posts..(tear rolling down my cheek) she really gets me. It's really strange how life goes you know. and to think we only actually met in real life this past summer. Seems like I've known her forever and we were just visiting and catching up lol. God really blessed me with her sisterhood. I say sisterhood cause being just friends does not do justice enough to how much she means to me. Masha'Allah.

Anywhow ! I did not sit here to write about this actually it just came out. Sorry for the gushing !! lol ( I am sure there will be more about that subject in the future when I start going through withdrawal of our daily conversations...)
I am truly blessed with a few sisters who I speak to everyday in one way or another. blogs will prob mention them in the future too!.

I wanted to write about my Title for today. I was shuffling for a status on facebook this morning and came across this one. it occurred to me how true this was and how I was just kinda feeling sorry for myself instead of MAKING things better.I used to be this way.. way back when.. dunno what happen to me..but I guess sometimes things happen and bring us to our knees and it's really hard to get back up again. So no more waiting for happiness to find me... gonna go out and get it myself dang it !

So I wanted to share that with y'all. ;)

this , too, I wanna share.. cause I love this song :) I know it's cheesy..but heck... I love it !

Oh and thanks to my new followers...glad to see u :)

Fi Amenallah